You're Killing Me

We were supposed to help Pho3nix move....But he couldn't move out just yet. So Autonomous, Cadence, Motus, Archangel, Pho3nix and Guardian and I had an impromptu pool party....It was a lot of fun just being around the Rhos and swimming. Archangel left and Anoml33 showed up. Nancy and her friend came to hang out too....Later on, I went to hang out with Daisy. We hung out with Ana GAO. We're totally going to win this newlywed game. Then we had some problems but we were able to resolve it. We always do.

2011: 115 and 62

In My Time of Dying

I waited all day to get out of work....I had a crappy paycheck because I was sick for a week. Later I went over to Daisy's....We hung out with Ana, her cousin and their aunt at Starbucks. Then Daisy and I saw "Bad Teacher". It was actually a good movie....She got us Sonic and then we went to her place to talk. We had some awkward conversations about being called the wrong name, getting bored and not working out. I don't understand how this stuff happens to me. Just my luck....

....even though I don't believe in luck.

2011: 113 and 62

At Least He Knows How To Eat.....

I was called into work early because Chelsie was sick....I had a lot of fun. I miss working the morning shift...I really enjoy working with Katianna. After I got out, I headed to pick up Cadence and G.N.E. was underway. He drove us to Jobing.com arena and we WOULD run into Ernesto in the parking lot...Jesse and The Toy Boys were a really cool band. The dancers were so damn great and then Nicki was amazing after them. Britney wasn't that great as a performer but she was a lot of fun! Apparently, someone was looking at Cadence's penis when he was peeing....We drove to BS West! Autonomous met us there and we ran into Griffin. We danced the night away but it was getting too crowded and hot for me so I sat out the last 15 minutes. I've been having a good past couple of days. Money is my only problem.

2011: 111 and 62

Here We Go

No text from her all day....I worked. I really like the afternoon shift more than the morning shift but it's not as many hours....Still no text from her all day. We finally talk and we get into another altercation. She things I don't go 50/50 when it comes to hanging out and also in our relationship or whatever this is....She talks to her ex more than me which makes me feel awesome. We kissed; I guess that means we patched things up. I told her that she seems like she just closes herself off to me. I guess we're both going to try harder....I need to get to Paradise Valley like I've been wanting to. To my place. I wonder if she knows that fights and negativity stay with me. I'm excited for the Britney Spears/Nicki Minaj concert with Cadence on Wednesday. I have a week off next week.

2011: 110 and 61

Show Me What I'm Looking For

I woke up next to Daisy which is always nice....She said I kiss like I'm not trying. She said she's always the one kissing me and I "never" kiss her....I wonder if she knows I'll now and forever be hesitant and self-conscious about how and when I kiss her. I've never had complaints from anyone else. Then again, you can't be the best to everyone....Cadence picked me up and we went to Nancy GAO's pool party. Anoml33 and Pho3nix and other Greeks were there. I was happy to be able to hang out with different folks. Later, Cadence and I went to BS West....It was a lot of fun just dancing again. I took Cadence to this spot in Paradise Valley on a mountain. I'm going to experiment soon. Apparently, Daisy is mad at me again. Apparently, we only hang out because SHE initiates it.

I guess we'll talk about it on Monday when I see her.

2011: 110 and 59

She said I was sexy :)

I worked from 8-1....I don't know where I am going to live. I wish things could be resolved so I would just KNOW....I hate being treated like a child. I hate being told what I can't do. Don't tell me what I can't do....The first Epic Zeta chapter meeting with High Alpha Enigma. The only neos who were able to come though were Motus, Archangel and Guardian. I got some good feedback in how I am as High Alpha so far. I just hope to keep improving....Then G.!.M. and myself had the national board conference call and Archangel stayed with us. Us three, Anoml33 and Cadence went to Native New Yorker after. It was cool to just hang out with my Rhos. I ran into Veronika. I need to get this insurance stuff done!

2011: 108 and 59

You're Said Too Much

It's amazing how a few things can throw off an otherwise good day....I had a bad day at work. It was just really frustrating...I watched an hour of "Brick" but decided I didn't like it so I stopped. I went to the DisOrientation rehearsal with Motus and Archangel. That was actually a lot of fun...Anytime I get to do theatre things, I'm fine. Anytime I get to see my lil bRhos, I'm amazing. Motus and I go to QT and we see Daisy, who's supposed to be out of town. Apparently not....I freak out and after a half hour of freaking out, I drop Motus off. I didn't want to "wolf out" in front of him. Of course, it started happening. She says it was just miscommunication. That doesn't stop it though.

2011: 106 and 59

Sunday Funday

Sunday Funday.....What the crap?! G.!.M., Autonomous, Cadence, Motus, Anoml33, Guardian and I met up at Vista and we ate and swam...It was a lot of fun to just hang out with the Rhos because I missed them. I didn't feel too great with the damn coughing. Then we went inside and played pool and ping pong....Daisy texted me. That threw me for a loop and I had an "attack" for a little. I think I can do it on purpose, I just need something to tie me up and a place to do it. Today was a nice day.

2011: 106 and 57

Lonelily

I'm still really bummed.....Apparently I also have valley fever too. Pneumonia and valley fever, how great....Later, I went to hang out with Stacy. We got QT drinks and we walked around TTL. I was feeling better in that I was able to walk through the park....But at the end, I couldn't stop coughing. I guess it'll be awhile before I am better. It was really nice seeing Stacy. I missed my good friend.

2011: 104 and 57

With German Boots

I didn't go to work today....I feel slightly better but still in hell. I don't get how you yell at someone when they're sick....Later in the night, I left my house because I couldn't take being indoors anymore. I hung out with Daisy which was really nice. We had some interesting conversations about being ready, not knowing each other, and the future.

2011: 104 and 55

No More Bloodshed

I called into work....I finally went to the doctor. I got blood work done, an inhaler, nasal spray and my pills from the psychiatrist.....Today was just a crappy day. I just hope things get better fast. I need to heal.

2011: 103 and 54

Right Now

I feel like shit....I have a fever and my body is sore. I hate being sick...I went over to Daisy's and we got lunch with Ana, Angela and Ernesto. Daisy took care of me all day. It was sweet of her....We went to Victoria's Secret with Ana but I felt like hell. I danced with Daisy under a streetlight. She sang to me which I really liked. I started to sing "Lucky" by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillet and when it got to the girl part, Daisy started singing it.....It was a nice moment. She's trying to figure out which "Michael" I am at times.

2011: 103 and 52

Due To Circumstances

I met up with Daisy because she was upset about something....I don't like seeing her upset. We talked a lot about my past.....I trust the girl a lot. I really enjoy spending time with her. I like her a lot.

2011: 101 and 52