Did You Think?

Thursday: I woke up in the kitchen...I don't remember going to the kitchen. I have new news about my "situation"....It's on hold for the weekend which is fine because it might happen next week. Let's keep this in mind for later. It gets more interesting....The first night of actual dancing in ballet killed my legs. But I absolutely loved it! I can't wait to get more into and get better at it. This will definitely help me in my life and getting to Self-Actualization....The Epic Six and Grillz went to Myst. Fucking $10 to get in and then I paid $5 for Seyandro's hat to be held on to. Casey, Frankie, Kelsey, Jamil, Claire and Christina were all there so that was definitely a plus. It was great that RHOgue was with us and that Grillz was having a good time. E-White!

2011: 21 and 6

Friday: School....Nap. Work....I met up with Cadence and we went to Kabuki with G.!.M., Autonomous, some LSU brothers and Lambda Theta Nu sisters. Frankie and Athena eventually came too. I like having people around....Cadence and I got invited to Chuy's for karaoke because there were a lot of Collegetown peeps there. And one of them said that they weren't going to be in town this weekend but they were there. Hmmmmm! I have to try to give the benefit of the doubt though....There'd better be a good reason for it. I am trying not to get too upset about it. Benefit of the doubt. That's what I have to try to do. No assuming.

Strum strum

Sunday: After work, I sped to the chapter meeting at ASU....We got a lot of things done. I can't wait for our Founder's Day in March...I hope Autonomous and I can pull this Culture Shock forum off. I'm really proud of Tekhnik for stepping up so much lately. I feel like we're all finally working together like we have always wanted....I talked a lot to Cadence about some problems. Particularly one. I'm trying to not let my insecurities get the best of me. But I have 8 or 9 other entities to deal with as well.

2011: 18 and 5

Monday: What a fuck ass day....It was good seeing G.!.M. and RHOgue though. And we ran into Nikki and a couple other sisters from Alpha Gamma Delta.....I want to be more open but I keep losing control. How can I be more honest if I can't even hold onto these truths/lies? I need more time.

2011: 18 and 6

I actually remember

Thursday: I'm still trying to figure out how to feel about the new developments in my life....I don't want to have to rely on something forever. But that is what it looks like will happen....Tuesday/Thursday are such busy days for me. History of Theatre, BIS 302 and Viewpoints are my favorite (even though I have four classes on these days). I ran into Bea and Alex. Viewpoints was so inspirational today....I went again today. I can tell this is going to take a lot of time to work on. I just need to be patient I guess....I ate with Cadence, Kumuda and Cassandra. It was a lot of fun just joking around and then we walked up to the Multicultural Night. We didn't stay because Cadence, Laura, Kumuda, Jamil and I went to Laura's to eat salad. It was so much damn fun just sitting around shooting the breeze with them. Even though Jamil eventually fell asleep....

2011: 17 and 3

raindrop

I need to do better on this...I worked Sunday and afterward, I went to Cheesecake Factory with Autonomous and Cadence. It was really nice...I wasn't ready, mentally, to see the other three just yet. We met up with Chase, Duyen, Jaena and Christina. We played Spoons with them and I thought it was really nice that we actually hung out in real life....Monday, we had community service with ASU. It was so amazing to see G.!.M., RHOgue and Tekhnik again. I really missed them. We cleaned up a school and helped them get up and running....Desert Storm went to RHOgue's house and sat around for awhile. I didn't realize how little the four of us just hang out. We had planned on going to Golden Corral but we went to Barney's and met Mike, Joe and Michelle there. Ho Dang for more Collegetown peeps. Ferris was there and it was cool seeing him although he pissed me off.

RHOgue, Tekhnik, Cadence and I went to Golden Corral anyway....It was good food and good fun. We joked and laughed and was loud like we always are...Cadence left towards the end. He was upset so I wasn't pissed after I heard that. The first day of school!....It started annoyingly. I couldn't find my Marriage class, or my Theatre history class but at least Jason is in it. My BIS 302 was good because I made two new friend, Nicole and Lauren and then Viewpoints was really intense. It was only the first day and I can tell I am in for a ride....I ate with Autonomous and Mathew hung out with us. Cadence eventually came and then Jamil, Casey and Brianna stopped by too. Autonomous and I went to Starbucks to plan out our Culture Shock Forum. Then we got a beer and started talking about personal things and Cadence came too and we were all sharing. We just needed to unwind.

Which led to us being late for practice because we're performing on Saturday....Then a few of us (including me) got into a yelling fit. It was weird because I usually don't raise my voice....Rho is going to be prosperous this Spring. I wonder if I will be though. I don't want us to lose ourselves on this journey and forget who we are.

2011: 16 and 2

Why Are You Shooting?

Saturday, January 8:

I think I've worked my last day at Anchor Blue...I hope they can stay open so when I get back, I can still be working. I think they will....The Epic Rhos has a candlelight ceremony. It was really nice to just speak from the heart with each of them. These Rhos are my family and it feels so great to have them....RHOgue, Tekhnik, Cadence and I got food at QT. We argued for awhile about who Keri Hilson really loves out of the four of us. We picked up G.!.M. We were supposed to go to an LSU party but it was deep in east Mesa....So we decided to go to Afterlife. After gathering jeans and money, it was $15 damn to get in. We went to IHOP except for Tekhnik which somewhat annoyed me. But the four of us had a lot of fun like we always do. Jessica from Alpha Gamma Delta was our server; she's such a sweet girl.

2011: 6 and 2

When The Curtain Calls

This was a great day...I went into work because Cody suggested that I get some extra hours in. I worked with Justin until he left...And Tracey was there. No one really cares anymore because the end is inevitable. I'm going to miss Anchor Blue...I went home for a bit before heading to Corrinne's house. Who lives in Mesa/Gilbert. We got chicken wings and talked. It was nice because we had never actually had serious conversations before....I opened her door for her and when I was walking around to mine, she had already opened it for me. Hmmm. We went to go see Little Fockers; it was a pretty funny movie. We went to her house after. I met her dad and she showed me around her house.

She brought out her ukulele....She started playing songs on it and singing. I got that goosebump thing....Corrinne likes the blues. She plays pool. She likes swing music. I told her my family history....I had a good night. Oh and I got paid today. Ho Dang for money! Ho Dang for friends!!

2011: 5 and 1

Slow Ride

I found out this morning that the entire company of Anchor Blue is going under...A liquidator is coming on Friday to our store to decide if we can stay open longer. Whether it's a week, two weeks or a month....It would be nice. That way we can get a little more money and it'd provide more time to find a job. This is the third company I have worked at that has gone out of business....I'm starting to think that it is me. Autonomous, "Dang that's a national company going out of business. Damn Macks.". I just hung around the house all day and then I met Jenny P. for the first time...I went over to her house. Her friend Jarrett, is such a good looking guy and his personality is amazing. He buys his clothes on ebay. I'm going to look into that.....We watched a movie (along with her roommate, Melissa). The movie was The Human Centipede. It was pretty disgusting. This doctor kidnaps three people and surgically sews them together. Ass to mouth with the guy in front with two girls behind him. I need to get my head around something else.

2011: 3 and 1

I Have It

I sure do love eating leftovers!...I worked from 2-6:30. I got to meet Cody....Tracey said to be weird to him (be myself). I did that and I found out that he's just as weird as I am. So it was pointless...Nicole came in today. It was really nice seeing her. I went to Cadence's and we watched Inception and ate lasagna. I can't get sick of that movie....Apparently Danielle has a secret. She won't tell me though. I think it is because I won't tell her mine. Tomorrow is the first Rho meeting of 2011. Big things poppin'.

2011: 2 and 0

Look At You

So I didn't work Friday...But I did do something. I don't regret it at all....It was pretty damn amazing. I felt alive. I hope it happens again....Even if it doesn't, I am still happy it happened at all. I hung out at home for awhile and then decided I should go out. I plan on spending next New Year's with my family. I went to Tekhnik's house....We played two games of League of Legends and then headed to Rosie GAO's house party. A few Greeks were there but Tekhnik and I represented for Rho. We drank a good amount. G.!.M., Autonomous and Cadence eventually came there. I never got my new year's kiss.

I took Cece OPC home and she was making my lil bRho look kind of dumb....Tekhnik was pretty wasted. That whole situation last night was just annoying.....2011 here I come. You'd better get ready for me. Or maybe I should for you.