An Actor Returns

March 1, 2013: I had my first audition in a little over a year.

March 2, 2013: I had callbacks for this play today. I was let go early while other actors were told to stay...

A few minutes ago, I got a call from the Director Kendra....She told me that I'm in! I got cast as Jinn 2. Deuce club!!....This is my first play in over a year; since May 2011. I've missed acting and it got to the point where it hurt me. It even hurt me a bit seeing my lil bRho Maslow act and not me....So I decided to audition and I gave it everything I had during the audition and callbacks. "Jinn" is going to be a great production and I'm going to step up to make it that much greater. I am going to be way busier than ever but it will be worth it. Here comes Enigma.

This past week has actually been very terrible besides today....I'm getting frustrated with the chapter. I am doing my best to not let my negativity take over....I don't remember Tuesday and I was wolfing out during Jazz on Wednesday. I need to start seeing someone again. It's starting to take over again....Serena and I aren't doing so well. But in the past couple days, we've been doing well. I love this girl and that's why I am trying so hard. I just don't want to lose her....People come and go. Some people go and we couldn't care less. Some people go and it absolutely destroys us. Sometimes it surprises us how we react when someone leaves. We care more than we think; we care less than we think.

I Don't Care For Fairy Tales

I'm getting sick of these illusions of "good people"....I think there are just people. And people do things....Things have been hectic and will get even more hectic. It's our Rho Week (February 24-March 3). Epsilon Sigma Rho Fraternity, Inc. was founded on March 2, 1986....We had a great "ESRho Family BBQ". My mama got to meet the Rhos and hang out with them. It was frustrating though with how unorganized we can be at times. Today, no one showed up for tabling except for me....I'm getting more and more tired. Things are happening again mentally. I think I know when I can see my psychologist. I need to. My Theatre classes start on March 4....

Take Her Out

I am doing terribly with keeping up with this....School has been alright. I'm anxious for my Theatre classes....Serena and I have been great. We celebrated our one year last week. We both dislike Valentine's Day so we did not see each other then....ESRho is getting hectic as we have a very busy two weeks. The Showcase performance with OPC and KDChi was amazing! I love performing so much. I have been toying with the idea of becoming a motivational speaker or at least looking into it....I signed up for my first audition since December 2011. We'll see how it goes. If not, I am going to flip out. If I do get it, I'll flip out but in a different way. I'm on my way back!

The Rising

Things have been slightly getting better....I spaced away from Serena because I didn't want to lash out and be who I used to be. I think it helped because we were pretty grand when we finally saw each other last night....Work is starting to get really tiring. I get by in the day if I have an energy drink but I don't want to go to being totally dependent on it. I just need a good sleep and to relax....This recruitment thing is fun. It is interesting to me how we recruit and pRHOmote ourselves. I wonder how other organizations do it. I'm nervous for the Greek Unity event on Saturday...I am one of the keynote speakers. I have no idea why especially on the topic of Greek Unity. I figure I'm one of the last people who should be speaking on it. Well MGC is competing as it's own team for Greek Week and I was one of the people spurring for it. Hopefully we do not fall flat on our face.

A Volcano

I am just starting to get angrier....I'm in a dark place. I feel though that my "dark place" is a bit different than others' "dark place"....Serena and I have been fighting for the past two days. Fan-fucking-tastic. It seems like negativity just overflows everywhere.....Today has been terrible as well. I feel like going to drink. I'm trying to avoid using drinking as a coping mechanism but sitting around doesn't really work. It seems like things around me are falling apart as well....I didn't go to Jazz because I was late so I would not have been allowed to participate. I don't have my laptop because it is broken. I'm having a problem with someone who I have always had a problem with today. The pool tournament is tonight and I'm sure I will not do too well. I just want to hide and scream and kick something.

A Return

My last post was on December 24, 2011....My friend Sandy B. and I decided that we are going to start blogging again. To say what I have been doing for the past year would take a long time but I'll try!...I have dating Serena L. since February 12, 2012. It's almost our one year. I am also High Alpha for Epic Zeta for the second year....It's a tough year for us because after May, we will have five BRhothers graduate. Which means we will really need to recruit this semester. I have only three Dance classes until my Theatre classes start in March. But my Dance class starts at 7:30 a.m. on Monday/Wednesday and I go to work at 7 a.m. on Tuesday/Thursday/Friday....That means I will be sleepy all semester. At least I'm less busy this semester. Taking a Latin/Salsa I with my sands RHOgue is so much fun. We should've done this a long time ago. I have a feeling we'll get even closer.